Divinely Disruptive

There are nights you kneel until your knees ache. Days you whisper the same words over and over until your throat feels like sandpaper. You pray, you fast, you cry, you beg. And still.... silence. No miracle. No breakthrough. Just the deafening weight of heaven not answering back. It hurts. It feels like rejection. You wonder if maybe you’re not good enough, not holy enough, not worthy enough. Because if God is listening, why won’t He just give you what you’re asking for? Why won’t He fix what’s broken, heal what’s hurting, or open the door you’ve been knocking on for years? I’ve been there. I’ve prayed for things that would’ve destroyed me if I got them. But at the time, I didn’t know that. All I knew was I wanted it, and I wanted it bad. A relationship that looked like love but was really poison. An opportunity that glittered with promise but was actually a trap. A “yes” that would’ve felt like victory but was actually the beginning of a downfall. And this is the part nobody tells...

I did not understand it when I was younger. Why my mom was so tough. Why she would look at me when I was hurt, physically or emotionally, and say, “Get up. You’ll be fine.” She never said it with coldness, but she also never said it with the softness I saw in other homes. Her eyes carried the truth that the world would not slow down for me, so she would not train me to slow down for it. Where I grew up, there was no space for weakness. Life did not pause because you were tired. There were bills to pay, work to do, and challenges that did not care about age or readiness. My mom carried heavy burdens but still made sure I learned how to stand on my own. She never told me life was fair. She never promised that people would treat me kindly. What she told me was that my reaction to what happens will always matter more than what happens. The first time it hit me was after I failed at something I had worked hard for. I had given my best, and the results were a disappointment. I came home re...

  We do not always realise how much power our words have. Not just the speeches or the dramatic declarations, but the everyday words we speak without much thought. The little comments, the casual compliments, the quick replies in passing. These are the ones that often sink deepest. They can sit quietly inside someone for years, shaping how they see themselves and how they walk through the world. Sometimes, our words plant something beautiful. Other times, they leave a mark that stings long after we have forgotten we said anything. The truth is, most of the time we never see the ripple effects. I still remember one morning in my first year of university. I was walking to class, feeling like I was barely holding myself together. My confidence was gone. I felt invisible, like no one would notice if I simply stopped showing up. Then one of my classmates stopped me and said, “Jimmy, you always look so focused. You inspire me to work harder.” It was a simple sentence. He probably forg...

  There is a dangerous habit that quietly destroys potential. It is the refusal to learn from someone because of personal dislike or the belief that they are somehow less valuable. This behavior is subtle, but the consequences are severe. Pride and ego create barriers that block growth, insight, and progress. It happens more often than people admit. Someone who carries valuable experience or knowledge steps into a room, but instead of being heard, they are dismissed. Not because they are wrong, but because others do not like how they speak, how they look, or where they come from. In those moments, the message is rejected because the messenger is not appealing. This kind of judgment is rooted in insecurity. People often ignore wisdom because it comes in a form they did not expect. They choose polish over depth. They follow speakers who sound impressive but offer little substance, while ignoring those who speak plainly but hold real experience and value. The surface becomes more im...